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what’s been on my mind/// june 14th, 2019

June 14, 2019June 14, 2019Personal Talks ♡, what's on my mind...1 Comment

hi all, it has been a hot minute since my last blog post, and that is simply because i became very busy at college with my classes and extra-curriculars, however i am now on my summer break and i will be posting a lot more onto my blog this summer and hopefully following up through the school year. during the time that i have been absent from my blog, i have started writing more personally, about my feelings, experiences, people, and some poetry. and i find it extremely therapeutic to write about these topics because it gives me a sense of peace, and throughout the summer i hope to change my blog a bit by writing more thoughtful, personable, and vulnerable posts. i want my blog to be my source of sharing my intimate writing with the world and hopefully others are inspired or can gain insight from my writing. i will soon be writing a post on the experiences of my first year at college, and hopefully do a college mini series on my blog to help those going into college as well.

anyways let’s get onto what is really been on my mind lately, it’s vulnerable and a bit nerve-racking to share this with others.

“people have been asking me if i am okay, sometimes i don’t know what to tell them. do i tell them the same lie i’m used to spitting out at people? or do i tell them the rotten truth… because if you want to hear the truth then, the truth is; i am far from okay, i am so unhappy with my life right now.

i ask myself, what am i doing for myself? and i think when i ponder on that question, i avoid it as much as possible because i am really not doing anything good for myself, especially in my current well-being state. and the reason why i say current well-being is because i am hurting so much right now, in pain that i was not experiencing before, that pain is from a heartbreak. i’ve been feeling shitty for a few weeks, not enjoying some of my hobbies and other daily activities, experiencing a war in my mind with the chaos of emotions i’m going through.

i feel as if i am trying to fill this void in my life to cover the open wounds. but what i really need is to heal… i’m leaving the wounds exposed, increasing my suffering. not because i want to, but because it’s what i know, and it’s a temporary fix even though the choices i’m making are not the best for my well-being.

i know that i need to change that if i want to feel better. if only you knew how hard this is, to do things that i am not ready to do yet. however, if i want to better my life then i’ll need to take these challenging actions so my suffering can decrease…”

this was just a mindful thought-to-thought post of my current emotions, thank you for the read.

sending you all good vibes, ariana. ♡

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Binge Worthy Netflix Shows YOU NEED TO WATCH// 2019

January 30, 2019January 30, 2019Lifestyle, Uncategorized6 Comments

Hello everyone, I hope you all are having a fantastic day so far. Currently in the Chicagoland area, we are experiencing freezing temperatures, with the wind chill it currently feels like (-45 ℉) 😬, so to all my Chicago peeps, please keep warm and safe! However, last year I wrote a post on must-watch Netflix shows (2018), so I figured I’d update everyone on new shows I’ve watched within in the past year. All of the following shows, happen to be Netflix Originals and they are all my favorites. I tried to include a variety, so that there is at least one show that appeals to you, (however there are no horror shows that I have watched entirely, so I apologize to all my spooky lovers). take out the snacks, and prepare for the Netflix marathon that awaits you!

YOU: This dark and mildly romantic thriller will keep you intrigued and addicted to keep on watching.

Synopsis: A bookstore manager (Joe) becomes instantly infatuated with a woman (Beck) who walks into his store, he soon becomes very obsessive and goes out to extreme lengths to be apart of her life, doing no matter what he has to do to make that happen.

Why you’ll love it: As more begins to unfold throughout the series, the mystery begins about who Joe really is, and he’s not the person Beck believes he his.

Sex Education: For those that like raunchy comedies with some heartfelt content, then this is for you.

Synopsis: Takes place in modern-day Great Britain. Otis is a young teen virgin, who seems to know a lot about sex problems, maybe because his mom is a sex guru. However, when him and the school’s tough gal Maeve both meet, they decide to make some extra cash by creating a sex therapy clinic on the down-low to help their classmates sexual issues.

Why you’ll love it: It’s a masterpiece that touches on all aspects of sex, through all genders and orientations, we see genuine humor and content that everyone can relate to in some way. (And hey, you learn a little about sex ed too!)

Master of None: This witty comedy is perfect for those who are young and confused about what they want.

Synopsis: 30-year-old Dev lives in the great New York City, he’s at the age where he’s struggling with what he wants in his life, both personally and professionally with his career. Throughout the show, it glimpses through Dev’s past and we see the important roles his friendships play in his life.

Why you’ll love it: This comedy is very realistic and is the epitome of millennial culture.

Love: A quirky Rom-Com that fulfills both a comedial and romantic standpoint perfectly.

Synopsis: Two millennials both recently become single. When they coincidentally meet and befriend each other, they develop a friends-with-benefits type of relationship, until they realize that they both feel more for one another.

Why you’ll love it: These two seem like polar opposites, however they may just have one of the best relationships.

Atypical: A heartfelt, authentic comedy, that glances in the life of someone living with autism.

Synopsis: Teenager Sam is on the autism spectrum, he decides that he wants to find a romantic connection, however he needs to learn how to be more independent, which causes his helicopter mom, to make changes in her lifestyle. Sam and his family learn how to adjust to these new changes and each experience challenges in their way of navigating life.

Why you’ll love it: This sincere show, gives you an understanding of autism, by both through the person with autism and those close to the person with autism.

Everything Sucks!: A quirky coming-of-age series, that takes a different perspective on high school.

Synopsis: It’s 1996 in the town of Boring, Oregon. Boring High School’s two clubs, AV and drama clubs decide to team up to create a short film production, that will help them get more recognition throughout the school. Of course, teenage romance issues take place, especially between the two main characters.

Why you’ll love it: The humorous show sharply touches on what goes through the minds of many teenagers throughout high school, from both a seriousness and comical view-point.

I hope you all enjoyed this post, and hopefully check out one of these shows. Even if they do not call your attention at first, I highly recommend giving them a shot. Comment down below which Netflix Original you’re most interested in watching! 💻

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talk to you all next Wednesday, ariana. ♡

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My First Semester in College

January 15, 2019January 15, 2019college life, Lifestyle4 Comments

Hello everyone, I am back with a new blog post as promised. For today’s post, I will be talking about a general overview of my experience during my first semester in college. A huge part of why I was not blogging for months, was because I had started college and I was adjusting to the college life. However going forward when I start the spring semester, I am planning on continuing with my blog, by posting once weekly.

I will not be enclosing what school I go to as of now, for safety reasons, however I am from the Chicagoland area and I do attend school not very far from my house, at a Liberal Arts College. I did choose to dorm on campus, to really engage myself in the college experience and to practice independence.

The day I moved into my dorm was such a blur, I remember feeling heighten emotions of anxiousness, surprise, and excitement. From where I was the first half of 2018, going and starting college was a massive change from everything I had been used to. The main feeling I felt, was that this was unbelievable, I am no longer living at home, I’m away from my family, and I am starting this new chapter of my life alone at college. Orientation was great though, I participated in this pre-orientation program, before my school’s main orientation, and it helped me meet new people and feel more comfortable in the environment before transitioning to a larger group setting.

The biggest adjustment at college was definitely living in the dorms. I live in a quad, so I have three other roommates, and living with strangers is difficult, you have to open up, and thankfully we all did and become close later on. The cafeteria food is alright, although after two weeks, I got real sick of the food and just wanted a home cooked meal. The most difficult aspect of living in a dorm, was the whole bathroom situation, my dorm building has communal bathrooms and man was that an adjustment, for others it’s not too bad, but something I miss is the luxury of my bathroom at home and the privacy I had, although it is part of the college experience.

As far as classes go, they are way better than in high school without a doubt. I took an english composition course, my freshman year seminar which was about gender and college experience, and an intro to psychology course. I was also enrolled in a math class, however I ended up dropping that class (a story for another time). My classes were very good for the most part, I had the best professors and I was so thankful to have made friends in each of my classes. It’s very nice having a different schedule every day, having time in between classes to relax and go back to your dorm or to chill in the main lounge and get some work done.

Overall, college has opened me up to so much more, I have met many cool people, I have gotten out of my comfort zone, took risks, and have gotten involved in campus life. There has been some struggles throughout the semester, where I had wanted to move back home or felt alone, but I pushed through it, like most students. I appreciate the pretty great moments I had with friends, the laughs that I had not felt in years, and the one-time opportunities I partaken in.

I hope you enjoyed reading a bit about how my first semester at college went. I am planning on starting a college series on my blog, where I write about a variety of aspects of college life, so if you have requests as to what you would like to see, then comment them down below!

talk to you soon, ariana. ♡