Monthly Thought/// February 2019

Hello, I hope everyone is having a great Wednesday so far. Today’s post will be bringing up a series I tried to have on my blog last year (however was only for May of 2018). Anyways, moving forward throughout the year I will be doing a series on my blog called “Monthly Thought”, each month I will be posting a blog entry of what’s on my mind currently or something that I feel needs to talked about. This will be a way to express myself through words and connect with my audience. Through these “Monthly Thought” posts, I will be conveying my vulnerable side in my writing, that typically does not get shared often.

Lately, I have been having this insane amount of gratitude in life. I have came to the realization that things in life are not as always complex as they seem to be. As the state that I am currently in, I can say that I am no longer feeling hopeless as I used to be, and now when I look for happiness I look for it in the smallest of things that I appreciate. I used to believe happiness derived from a person (whether that be a S.O, friend, or parent, etc.), a specific thing, or even a job. However, I find that happiness is something that comes from within and although it is not necessarily the actual feeling of happiness, it is the feeling of content and/or satisfaction. I used to suffer from severe depression, to the point where it affected my life through my relationships with others, my academics, and even my relationship with myself. It has been a long time since I have felt true happiness, and although there has not been many, I am incredibly grateful for the happy moments I did have. Occasionally, I feel depressed or I have a few weeks randomly where depression decides to creep up on me, and although it sucks, it is an improvement from the past. I cannot say that I am happy or in other words completely content, but at least I am no longer sad. Slowly, but surely I am making progress to my well-being and through practicing gratitude, I am able to appreciate more in life. A question I want all of you to ask yourselves, how content are you with your life currently, and are you incorporating gratitude into your life?

This was a very random thought, but it is something I wanted to get off of my chest and talk about. I hope in someway this post gave you insight or gave you a new perspective to look at. I promise next week’s post will be much more lighthearted.

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A Reflection of the Past Few Years///What 2019 will be for me.

Hello everyone who is reading this, if you are a follower on my blog then you would know that I have not posted in nearly five months, and I very much apologize. I began college and had a lot of change in my life and sort of forgot to keep up with my blog. However, I most definitely will pick up blogging again for the new year, so I hope you can stay tuned for some exciting content to come.

Anyways, for this post I will be giving a run down on what the past few years each represented for me. It’s unbelievably crazy how quick time goes by, 2018 was a legit roller coaster. However, this gave me insight on a reflection over the past few years and what I am looking for in 2019.

2016 was a year of realization

By the end of this year, I had come to the realization that I was severely unhappy and suffering from a lot of internal pain that I kept from people for years. Also the election was something that made me realize this country’s climate, but it also helped me realized what I wanted to stand for and what I was passionate about.

2017 was a year of pain.

That year was probably the toughest year of my life, I was battling internal demons that no one had a clue about. Things were going on in my life that made it difficult to change. I was afraid of change so I lived through that pain. There were multiple points throughout 2017 where I could not see myself here anymore, life was tough and unbearable, but I received help at the end of the year that made my life much better than it was before.

2018 was a year of change and growth.

The person I was who started off this year, was very anxious, lonely, and timid. The year started out very rough, I cut contact with almost everyone. I isolated myself for months. However, I also endured a big change this year when I started college, created this blog, and opened myself up to more people. It sure was nerve-racking, but I made it through. I did not think I was going to be able to handle it, but I did. I stepped outside my comfort zone and made progress. I am so grateful for the change, and how different my life is compared to one year ago today. I have met so many amazing people along the way, I have partaken in many experiences, and most of all I started to appreciate the things in life that I used to take for granted. The person I am now is not the girl from the beginning of 2018, she’s different, and although I may still be anxious and reserved at times, I have shown a great amount of courage and I can now honestly say that I’m courageous.

2019 will be my year of strength.

I will show and prove to my self my resilience of the past few years. It is going to be the year in my life where I learn to self grow and accept myself. I will prove to myself how strong I really am. I will find myself in ways that evoke my strengths and bring out the best of me.

peace.2018.
“peace 2018, thanks for preparing me for 2019”.

I hope you all enjoyed this read, I wish you all a happy new year filled with love and joy! I look forward to posting more on my blog in the new year.

talk to you soon, ariana. ♡

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Chit-Chat with Me. /// July 2018

Hi everyone, it’s been a long time since I’ve wrote a blog post and I’m very sorry that I’ve been MIA for over a month, so much has changed the past month. Unfortunately, a couple weeks ago I resigned from my job due to many personal reasons, and it was a bit tough at first, however I’ve dealt with it and moved on.

Also to be quite honest, I lost a lot of motivation to write on my blog the past few weeks, it felt forced and I do not want to put out content if it’s not my best work. More recently, after having some time to reflect my life, I realized how much I missed blogging and how essential it is for me to blog. This is a creative outlet for me, and when I blog, I feel empowered that I am able to share my thoughts/info into the world. Therefore, I will be back to blogging for sure once a week, hopefully twice the next couple of weeks before I start college. I begin college in late August however I move in mid-August. Another few updates with you all is that I will be going on vacation to San Francisco in a couple of weeks, which is very exciting for me, since it’s my favorite city (outside of Chicago of course!). Lastly, before I finish this post, I just wanted to give you all the run-down of some of the next few posts I plan to write next (in no specific order):

  • Favorite Makeup Brushes
  • A Traveling Post
  • Spotify Playlist
  • Highschool Tips/Tricks
  • A Food Truck review

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