thoughts – Life with Ariana

what’s been on my mind/// june 14th, 2019

June 14, 2019June 14, 2019Personal Talks ♡, what's on my mind...1 Comment

hi all, it has been a hot minute since my last blog post, and that is simply because i became very busy at college with my classes and extra-curriculars, however i am now on my summer break and i will be posting a lot more onto my blog this summer and hopefully following up through the school year. during the time that i have been absent from my blog, i have started writing more personally, about my feelings, experiences, people, and some poetry. and i find it extremely therapeutic to write about these topics because it gives me a sense of peace, and throughout the summer i hope to change my blog a bit by writing more thoughtful, personable, and vulnerable posts. i want my blog to be my source of sharing my intimate writing with the world and hopefully others are inspired or can gain insight from my writing. i will soon be writing a post on the experiences of my first year at college, and hopefully do a college mini series on my blog to help those going into college as well.

anyways let’s get onto what is really been on my mind lately, it’s vulnerable and a bit nerve-racking to share this with others.

“people have been asking me if i am okay, sometimes i don’t know what to tell them. do i tell them the same lie i’m used to spitting out at people? or do i tell them the rotten truth… because if you want to hear the truth then, the truth is; i am far from okay, i am so unhappy with my life right now.

i ask myself, what am i doing for myself? and i think when i ponder on that question, i avoid it as much as possible because i am really not doing anything good for myself, especially in my current well-being state. and the reason why i say current well-being is because i am hurting so much right now, in pain that i was not experiencing before, that pain is from a heartbreak. i’ve been feeling shitty for a few weeks, not enjoying some of my hobbies and other daily activities, experiencing a war in my mind with the chaos of emotions i’m going through.

i feel as if i am trying to fill this void in my life to cover the open wounds. but what i really need is to heal… i’m leaving the wounds exposed, increasing my suffering. not because i want to, but because it’s what i know, and it’s a temporary fix even though the choices i’m making are not the best for my well-being.

i know that i need to change that if i want to feel better. if only you knew how hard this is, to do things that i am not ready to do yet. however, if i want to better my life then i’ll need to take these challenging actions so my suffering can decrease…”

this was just a mindful thought-to-thought post of my current emotions, thank you for the read.

sending you all good vibes, ariana. ♡

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Monthly Thought/// February 2019

February 6, 2019February 6, 2019Monthly Thought, Personal Talks ♡Leave a Comment

Hello, I hope everyone is having a great Wednesday so far. Today’s post will be bringing up a series I tried to have on my blog last year (however was only for May of 2018). Anyways, moving forward throughout the year I will be doing a series on my blog called “Monthly Thought”, each month I will be posting a blog entry of what’s on my mind currently or something that I feel needs to talked about. This will be a way to express myself through words and connect with my audience. Through these “Monthly Thought” posts, I will be conveying my vulnerable side in my writing, that typically does not get shared often.

Lately, I have been having this insane amount of gratitude in life. I have came to the realization that things in life are not as always complex as they seem to be. As the state that I am currently in, I can say that I am no longer feeling hopeless as I used to be, and now when I look for happiness I look for it in the smallest of things that I appreciate. I used to believe happiness derived from a person (whether that be a S.O, friend, or parent, etc.), a specific thing, or even a job. However, I find that happiness is something that comes from within and although it is not necessarily the actual feeling of happiness, it is the feeling of content and/or satisfaction. I used to suffer from severe depression, to the point where it affected my life through my relationships with others, my academics, and even my relationship with myself. It has been a long time since I have felt true happiness, and although there has not been many, I am incredibly grateful for the happy moments I did have. Occasionally, I feel depressed or I have a few weeks randomly where depression decides to creep up on me, and although it sucks, it is an improvement from the past. I cannot say that I am happy or in other words completely content, but at least I am no longer sad. Slowly, but surely I am making progress to my well-being and through practicing gratitude, I am able to appreciate more in life. A question I want all of you to ask yourselves, how content are you with your life currently, and are you incorporating gratitude into your life?

This was a very random thought, but it is something I wanted to get off of my chest and talk about. I hope in someway this post gave you insight or gave you a new perspective to look at. I promise next week’s post will be much more lighthearted.

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sending you all good vibes, ariana. ♡

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Chit-Chat with Me. /// July 2018

July 24, 2018July 24, 2018Lifestyle, Uncategorized6 Comments

Hi everyone, it’s been a long time since I’ve wrote a blog post and I’m very sorry that I’ve been MIA for over a month, so much has changed the past month. Unfortunately, a couple weeks ago I resigned from my job due to many personal reasons, and it was a bit tough at first, however I’ve dealt with it and moved on.

Also to be quite honest, I lost a lot of motivation to write on my blog the past few weeks, it felt forced and I do not want to put out content if it’s not my best work. More recently, after having some time to reflect my life, I realized how much I missed blogging and how essential it is for me to blog. This is a creative outlet for me, and when I blog, I feel empowered that I am able to share my thoughts/info into the world. Therefore, I will be back to blogging for sure once a week, hopefully twice the next couple of weeks before I start college. I begin college in late August however I move in mid-August. Another few updates with you all is that I will be going on vacation to San Francisco in a couple of weeks, which is very exciting for me, since it’s my favorite city (outside of Chicago of course!). Lastly, before I finish this post, I just wanted to give you all the run-down of some of the next few posts I plan to write next (in no specific order):

Favorite Makeup Brushes
A Traveling Post
Spotify Playlist
Highschool Tips/Tricks
A Food Truck review

Thank you for everyone who read this post, hopefully you all stay tuned for some of my upcoming posts. Also if you would like to see a specific post on my blog, comment down below your requests! If you enjoyed this post then do not forget to like it and please subscribe with your email in the sidebar, to be notified of new posts through your email, (be sure to confirm subscription in email). Also make sure to follow me on my social media pages down below, I will follow back all other fellow bloggers!

see you soon, ariana.